I have a job coming up that I will be shooting for next month. It is very frustrating to not be in shape at this point in time. I have been frustrated many times, but I think a lot of it was my fault. Everything is going up at once, so there are so many invitations and it's hard to find a balance 😫 Anyway, I'm off to the gym now 😤
スイーツ親方のマカロンを買ったのだけど、こんなに大きなマカロン初めて食べた🤣 ・ Yesterday was my first time watching sumo at the Kokugikan! I went at noon and only saw about half of the match. But I still saw a huge number of wrestlers 👀 The matches went by so fast and fluidly that I could have missed them if I was talking 😅
I bought some macarons from Sweets Oyakata and I've never had macarons this big 🤣
I'm going to build my body well for another month and a half starting today 🏋️♀️ The more I eat out and the less I exercise, the more my body starts to put on flesh 😩
Yesterday was my first practice game in a while 🏐 The shoes seemed to be getting old and I felt like they were slipping and dangerous even after wiping the soles 🫣 Why are five finger socks so uncool 😂
I'm thinking of getting a new tattoo, but Japan is in the humid season right now. I don't think this time of year is suitable for me as I tend to sweat easily ☔️
The last day of GW will likely end with a half day of practice as usual 🏐.
I hadn't moved properly for about 10 days, so I had a pishy back pain while I was hitting the attack... 🤕. I'm glad I didn't get an upset back. We are going to have bad weather for a while starting today, and at times like this, old injuries and such hurt. I have to remind myself not to push myself when I know I'm injury prone... or I'll be reckless 😓.
Hello! Yesterday, I was taken out by my sister, who is as old as my parents but good friends, very energetic and a pioneer of Japanese art makeup.
She knows me well and leaned on me to say some harsh things and share my experiences. I had acted out of momentum, and afterwards I suddenly felt restless and drank alcohol myself for a long time. I drink so much that I lose my memory when I'm with someone I'm comfortable with, but I walk around and talk normally, which is not good for me 😶🌫️. I went to another restaurant where I knew someone for just drinks because I was too active, but I'm glad I was able to walk home yesterday because there were people there. When I got home, I couldn't sleep well and already had pain behind my eyes. I woke up several times, felt a headache, myself to sleep, and woke up dehydrated in the morning. What a terrible way to wake up. Where was my spirit last night 😶🌫️?
I learned something when I couldn't eat at all. Since I can't eat, I drink hot water and tea to try to eat something good for my body, but it seems that this is not enough to nourish my body and my skin becomes very itchy.
I have never had such an experience before, so I am not comfortable scratching my own skin even though I have not been bitten by a mosquito, and it is really a disgusting act because I feel like a person who is missing something 😶🌫️.
Even in Japanese anime, a character scratching his skin is not a good image: filthy, sensitive, naive, introverted...etc. I think I'll try to study nutrition somehow.
And I started growing cherry tomatoes on my balcony. People in the world seem to have pets to fill their sense of loss, but for me it seemed to be cherry tomatoes 😂.
Hello. I was able to finish the weekend with a few friends who talked about how depressed I was and took me out walking telling me to eat and that I need to get out.
I wasn't sure if I should write about the not-so-sparkling part here, but everyone says that Instagram is a tool to show only the good parts and Twitter is a place to mumble and let your heart out, but I don't want to talk to people about my negative feelings, so I thought it would be better to write about the not-so-sparkling part here. I thought it would be better to write here.
I think it will be very difficult to get back to the energy I had just a week ago unless I have a chance to do something about it.
But I have grown unlike before.
That is, if I continue to be in a situation like this, where I'm now rotting and can't get out of bed, and I'm crying just remembering it, even walking outside. I'm throwing away all my previous efforts, and I'll be disrespecting my friends, strangers, and family who are now encouraging and supporting me.
I was convinced that I was the only one who had done something not good. When I let it out to my friends as it was and told them I regretted it, it wasn't just you. He said that the person I was dealing with in a difficult situation took advantage of me, didn't listen to me to the end, and ran away. He told me that he thinks I am suffering because the intentions I wanted to convey were left unspoken.
I am suffering now, but I don't think this is the end yet. I hope I can be honest then.
布団から出られず、動きたくもなく、食欲もないが、練習中は頭から悲しい事を忘れられると思って外に出てきた。 眠れずずっと横になっていた体は体力の消耗が激しく、5分パスをしただけで鉛の様に重く固まった。 試合中は息を整えるのにも時間がかかり、この何ヶ月か頑張って作ってきた体は弱くなってしまったのかとさらに悲しくなった。 私は元気ですと言った方がいいかと、しばらくログインしていないSNS用に自撮りましたが、笑えない。顔が変だ。 体育館から近い実家の母が、おばあちゃんちで採れた筍とみんなに差し入れを持ってきてくれた。 ありがたい。 私にあった出来事を話すと「顔がこけてるよ、頬のところとかげっそりしてる。」と。 そんなこと気にするな、タイミングもある。とサバサバした口調で話す母の顔には少しの心配とそんな事気にするなという表情、それと少し怒っているような感じがした。 帰り道も気を抜くと涙が出てきて気持ちも溢れてくるので、なるべく電車に乗らず歩く事にした。 歩きながら泣いている女に暗がりですれ違った人達は驚いただろうな。 ・ I couldn't get out from under the covers, didn't want to move, and had no appetite, but I came outside thinking I could forget the sadness from my head during practice. My body, which had been lying down for so long without sleep, was so drained of energy that it stiffened heavily like lead after just five minutes of passing. It took me a long time to catch my breath during the game, and I felt even sadder that my body, which I had worked so hard to build over the past months, had become so weak. I took a selfie for social media, which I haven't logged into for a while, to see if I should say I'm fine, but it's not funny. My face looks funny. My mother, whose parents live close to the gym, brought me some bamboo shoots from my grandma's house and some goodies for everyone. I'm so grateful. When I told her what had happened to me, she said, "You have a scowl on your face, your cheeks are all scruffy." She said, "Don't worry about that. Don't worry about that. My mother's face had an expression of concern, a look that said, "Don't worry about it," and a hint of anger. On the way home, if I let my guard down, I would start to cry and my feelings would overflow, so I decided to walk instead of taking the train as much as possible. People I passed in the dark must have been surprised to see a woman crying while walking.
大切な人の大変な時に、優しい選択や寄り添う事ができなくて後悔した経験はありますか？ 私は今とても後悔しています。 何日か投稿が止まっていてすみません。 ・ Have you ever regretted not being able to make a gentle choice or be there for your loved one during a difficult time? I regret it very much right now. Sorry I have stopped posting for a few days.
昨日1日中試合をしていて、いつも腰が冷えないように専用のサポーターをしていたら腰とお尻がかぶれて痒くなってしまった😵 体が痒くなる事があまりないので、嫌な感じだ😮💨 ・ I was playing a game all day yesterday and I always wear a special supporter to keep my lower back cool and now my lower back and buttocks are itchy with a rash 😵 It's not often that my body itches so it's disgusting 😮💨
今まで、ハードな運動をした次の日などをコンディションを整える日として考えた事がなかったのだけど、理学療法士のお友達にそういう日を作らないと体の疲労や歪みが悪くなるよと聞いて明日はゆっくりストレッチなどをするだけの日にしようと思っています🧘♀️ あと、炭水化物やビタミンを沢山摂らないと回復しないと聞いた。 何を食べようかな🤔 ・ I have never thought of the day after a hard workout as a day to condition, but my friend who is a physical therapist told me that if I don't make such a day, my body will get tired and distorted worse, so tomorrow I am going to make it a day to just take it easy and stretch, etc. I'm going to take it easy and do some stretching. I also heard that I need to eat lots of carbs and vitamins to recover. What should I eat 🤔
あのくらいの濃霧を体験したいが、住んでいる地域では中々お目にかかれないだろうな😕 ・ Humid weather today☁️. Unusually, there was a warning of dense fog in the morning and I thought I could experience it, but it was just cloudy 😐. About 10 years ago we once got together with other teams to do a joint summer camp 🏐.
I had some business to attend to, so I got a ride home in the car of someone who was leaving on the second night, and we arrived home late at night, and that's when I experienced thick fog for the first time 🌫. I was surprised that I couldn't see a meter ahead even with the car's high beams on. I was a little scared and excited on the mountain road but I couldn't sleep and fell asleep and when I woke up, my friend who was scared was holding my hand while driving slowly 😂. If I had been the driver, I would have been scared of what would happen if we had an accident 😅I'm sorry for my friend at that time 😅
I'd love to experience fog as thick as that, but I guess it's rare to see it in the area where I live 😕
さて、雨でとても涼しい日です☔️ こういう日が大好き。 この撮影の日はじっとりと暑く、写真から伝わる様にだんだん汗ばんできました。 ・ Well, it's a rainy and very cool day ☔️. I love days like this. The day of this shoot was hot and still, and as you can tell from the photos, I was getting sweaty.
最近ずっとあるカレー屋さんのナンにハマっていて、週一でお腹がはち切れそうになるまで食べに行っている🍛🇮🇳🤤 ・ I've been addicted to naan from a certain curry shop for a long time now and I go there once a week until my stomach is about to burst 🍛🇮🇳🤤
ちょっと食べ物を管理して食べるのが嫌になって1週間くらい、お菓子をこれでもかと食べている😵💫 久々のマカダミアナッツチョコレートは美味しい🍫 どこで切り替えるか😓 ・ ・ I've been sick of managing and eating food for a bit and eating sweets as much as I can for about a week 😵💫 I haven't had macadamia nut chocolate in a while 🍫 delicious! Where to switch 😓
今年こそは乾燥機能付き洗濯機を買おうと悩み早5年…。 ・ ・ Cherry blossoms in Japan are falling 🌸👋 More rain is coming and we are about to enter the rainy season ☔️. Although I like the weather, I do not like the humidity.
Makeup quickly melts and flakes off, and straightened hair quickly becomes shaggy 🤯. A gush of sweat soaks your dress and you're stunned at what time you spent getting ready 🤦♀️
I have been worrying about buying a washing machine with a dryer this year for the past 5 years....
久々の投稿になってしまった、ごめんね！ 大変な事があって少し塞ぎ込んでいました😞 2日3日寝込んで水も飲まないと、心が回復して起き上がれても食べ物を食べたいと思わないのですね🤭 筋肉のために食べなくては…タンパク質…炭水化物…。 ・ It's been a while since I've posted, sorry! I've been having a hard time and have been a little blocked up 😞 When you sleep for 2 or 3 days and don't drink water, you don't want to eat food even if your mind recovers and you can get up 🤭 I need to eat for my muscles...protein...carbs....
