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My eyes hurt a lot, yesterday I made a new post with difficulty, mostly slept, today my eyes look better but still hurt a lot, maybe there will be no post today, I apologize in advance. I sleep or sit with my eyes closed all the time

hey! hope you’re all having a great day :3 i was thinking a bit about my childhood, in case you’re interested. i moved several times, but before the first move, i felt like a totally different person. i was super brave and sporty. climbing trees, riding my bike, doing tricks on the pull-up bar — i even defended other kids from bullies. but here’s the interesting part: despite all that, i was a straight-A student and never broke rules at school — i didn’t even run in the hallways. i always felt like i had to do the right thing, even if no one was watching. my parents told me something really important a long time ago: “trust is lost only once.” that means if you betray someone, they’ll never fully trust you again and will always doubt your words and actions. that phrase means a lot to me. also, growing up, we barely had money. we ate simple food, and even when we had more, i understood its value and was careful. for example, as a kid, i didn’t want a bunch of cheap toys — i preferred one good quality thing a year. i also saved my pocket money for bigger things. because of that, i’m pretty good with money now, but at the same time, i’m scared to spend on small pleasures… #legs #sneakers #alt #altgirl #egirl #goth #petite #slender #skinny #small

Hello There was no cosplay today. There was a problem with the nail, something happened to the nail plate because of the polish, but nothing serious, just a little not in the right mood to shoot a wonderful cosplay In fact, I'm surprised again by what exactly people write on Reddit Basically, of course, it is a lot of kind pleasant words, but there is another constant category Category - eat, you have anorexia spoiler. I don't have anorexia, or any other eating disorder. If someone was worried and is you are here, then you can be calm, I like to eat delicious food and you can always feed me something extra :3 I have muscular dystrophy, but not significant. I just need more sports to grow muscles, but I eat enough protein as well as carbohydrates, fats and all sorts of vitamins. There is a huge variety of products in Thailand and I love to cook my signature dishes, which have a maximum of different healthy INGREDIENTS. And the volume of portions is also full. In general, what am I talking about, don't worry about me so much, please. I am well. I don't have any serious diseases, I used to have problems, but I'm healthy now, except congenital irregular feet and damaged nail x) I had to say this because I have a feeling that the whole world thinks there's something wrong with me, even though I know that not everyone thinks so. And please, if someone is looking at me and dreaming of losing weight, there is no need for any diets, you do not need to be dystrophic, it is better to do sports and eat healthy food. I'm not here for anyone to look at me and dream of getting skinny. First of all, I show outfits! #tall #alt #altgirl #techwear #kurowear #skinny #abs #cyberpunk #cosplay

Hello! I overestimated my strength a little, but everything is fine. I really hope to do cosplay tomorrow Basically, now I do not prepare and do not sort content, but I am more engaged in the creation itself, sorting and preparation will be done later But today I didn't do anything, I was tired yesterday, so I'm watching anime, I slept for a long time and woke up late, I hope tomorrow everything will work out, wish me good luck! #sfw #techwear #altgirl #cyberpunk #slender #tall #abs #skinny #video

Heeey! I think I'm back to work! I want to take pictures and make vids :3 I think I like the kurowear version with pants even better than the transparent bodysuit..... I didn't even know I could like the pants so much. but the version without pants is still there too. although I still like the pants version better.... I plan to shoot a lot of content and finish the custom orders that have been accumulating and dusting and waiting for their moment. nothing is guaranteed, but this is the plan of action. and in general I heard that in my country fansly is now a banned site, so when I fly to my home country, I will have to solve the problem with vpn, and this will happen in the first days of July. so do not lose me if a few days I will not be there, everything is fine, just I will solve this difficulty ... although the flight is still more than a week away and I'm already thinking about it. I have the work attitude, I have the mood, everything is fine. Does poe heal my soul? Maybe #skinny #altgirl #techwear #slender #tall #tummy #cyberpunk #pants #underboob

Hey! I'm resting up and looking for myself to start doing a new cosplay photo set. At the same time, I remembered that a new league in PoE 1 has started and sometimes I come to play. Oblivion is on pause for now since I made 100% chameleon. too strong an imba that breaks gameplay. I also watch a simple anime - tower of god. not sure if that's what it's called exactly. Mostly sitting at home, not going anywhere, making good food and relaxing. But I'm still feeling uneasy and I can't let it go. #skinny #stockings #cyberpunk #techwear #altgirl #slender #bodysuit #transparent #petite

Consider this video as proof that the katana is a toy This is actually one of the attempts to shoot this outfit, and it seems that in the video the light is more stable for some reason... Fun fact. I fell asleep on my arm and the tattoo was imprinted on my cheek, now I have the task of removing it not only from my hands, but also from my cheek I also have pants for this look, by the way, and I want to make some more content in this outfit in the near future. In the video, this is the first fitting I think I don't want to injure my skin and won't try aggressive tattoo removal measures, and for my next cosplay, I'll just put on gloves or tape these places #cyberpunk #techwear #skinny #cosplay #alt #altgirl #stockings #transparent

hey! sorry I disappeared yesterday. here are some pictures of Kurowear. actually yesterday was sad and I fell asleep early before I could post. my phone updated and everything was just horrible. I've been dealing with it for a long time trying to figure out how to get it back. then I started taking pictures but because the clothes are black I spent hours trying to adjust the light so that the skin wasn't too white and the clothes weren't too invisible because they were black. or the clothes just blended in with the background. I almost went crazy. i tried to take pictures again today and I don't like much. such a beautiful outfit and so sad that it doesn't turn out the way I thought it would in my head..... very few pictures because I couldn't set up the light again even with daylight.... I feel like I forgot how to take pictures. and the mirror is broken and distorts the image more and more ..... oh sorry.... also the temporary tattoos on my arms are suddenly not really temporary. it's a pigment that is embedded in the skin. i don't understand how to remove it now ....and then there's the cute girl cosplay. I need to fix this day before I cry. #skinny #cyberpunk #altgirl #kurowear #slender #tall #bodysuit #stockings

I decided to take a vacation today. I also noticed an interesting thing. pay attention to the picture with the plushy. if you have a subscription you can see both the version with a preview and the version without a preview. if I'm not mistaken. so here is an interesting thing that if you hide elements of clothing under any censorship, it creates a strange feeling that the person is more naked than there is in the photo. it's funny that the body is seen less than in the original but the feeling is completely different some kind of brain trickery? I honestly don't like the way the preview is done in this case, but experimenting I was really surprised and decided to leave it that way to share this observation what we've come to... discussing the effects of censorship... #cosplay #sneakers #stockings #thighigh #hips #skinny #tiny #schoolgirl #tall #emo

Yesterday I went to buy water and it started to rain a little when I went outside, it's funny that the rain stopped when I got home. But I met a frog!! #nature #frog

hope you're all having a nice day! as usual, i’m not following the plan i set for myself :D instead of taking photos, i ended up working more on the wig… and honestly, i absolutely love doing it. even though it’s a long process, it’s super meditative and fun. with every new section i style, i learn something new, and the next wig will be even better. for the cosplay i’m making this wig for, the only thing left to arrive are the japanese wooden sandals – geta. so now i have everything ready for two full photosets, just need to dress up and shoot :3 i really enjoy learning this new way of styling wigs… though it doesn’t fit every cosplay. for characters with more natural hairstyles or less volume, it’s better to skip crimping and heavy styling. but for anime characters, styling over crimped hair is just perfect! you’ll see it all soon also... i spend so much time learning these things. does anyone else take this long to style wigs? #alt #goth #gothgirl #underwear #shorthair #pale #emogirl #skinny #petite

heeey looks like the video is fine after all, probably just a small glitch today i received everything i need for my kurowear look. tomorrow i’ll finish the outfit and start taking photos. there will be two versions, not too different from each other, but still slightly unique i also got my hairspray today and continued working on the wig. most of the work is done, but then the water in my apartment ran out. i need distilled water for it. so it turned into an unexpected break again — which was actually perfect timing, because once again i didn’t realize i was already getting tired. not too bad though. i also slightly overheated the wig hair... but i still hope it’ll look nice in the end so yeah, working, resting, building looks, haven’t left the house at all lately, but at least i’m eating well i’m taking a break from oblivion for now — i got a bit of dermatitis on the spots where my skin rubs against the table the most but overall things are good. i’m working without overworking #skinny #goth #altgirl #gothgirl #cosplay #frieren #bikini #smallgirl #tiny #slender

Uh. do you see the video? if anyone can't see it, please vote. i just got a message that i deleted it, but now i see it again... I need to figure out if I need to restore it

good morning everyone! i don’t feel tired today!!! that’s a win ♡ i’m still a little anxious about my upcoming flight, but overall everything’s okay :3 my wig styling spray is already on the way, and i’ve almost finished my kurowear outfit—so something cool is coming soon! not sure if i’ll manage to finish everything i planned, but i’ll try my best right now i just wanna play oblivion and share some thoughts i already have. i first played it when i was around 11 or 12. my dad and i went to a game store and i got the collector’s edition—there was even a t-shirt included, which my mom claimed and wore for workouts :D once i started playing, i was completely hooked (even though the oblivion gates used to scare me a bit). i remember every game i played before i turned 14 as being way more beautiful and realistic than they actually are. and now… i launch the remastered oblivion, and i seriously tear up—because it looks exactly like how i remember it in my heart. the nostalgia and sense of adventure completely pull me in. i don’t even remember if the original had stat distribution after leveling up or stamina-based sprinting—but these additions don’t feel wrong. this still is that same game. i keep walking by places thinking, “oh! something cool happens here…” maybe new players won’t feel what i feel, but for me this is a very special game. i often try replaying games from my childhood but end up feeling a little disappointed because the memories are always prettier than the reality. but this remaster… it feels like i’m playing the exact game i remember. and that’s magical #skinny #alt #altgirl #cosplay #sfw #stockings #cosplayer #teen

And so, I felt better and got back to work! Today I styled a wig for the next cosplay, it turns out very beautiful! At least I like X) In fact, I stopped halfway through the work. After a bunch of cosplay wigs, it was on this wig that the styling polish ran out. And it is this wig that cannot be styled without hairspray I ordered a new one, I am very actively waiting!! For this cosplay, an incredibly beautiful costume that I have been wanting to order for a very long time. The cosplay was bought with a tip from my birthday By the way:3 Thank you again Perhaps it's even good that the spray ended, I didn't notice that it turned out that I was tired. And because of the forced break, I will not overwork #skinny #tiny #cosplay #teen #anime #animegirl #emo #altgirl #small #cosplayer

Good day to you! I have several videos here that I want to share :3

I think there are several reasons. but the main reason is that I am leaving Thailand in less than a month and I wanted to have so much to do here before I left... of course I can do it all when I come back here again.... but I wanted to do it this month. and I feel like my efforts are not commensurate with the results. and there are so many places I wanted to visit... and I have a guilty conscience on days when I'm on vacation. I'm trying to organize my thoughts. I don't want the rest of my time to be sad.

For some reason it's been very sad today since I woke up. I'm trying to fix it

Literally, a feeling of nostalgia that makes me cry pleasant, kind tears

some photos not really cosplay-related today ♡ there was this soft scattered light that felt kinda magical, i really liked it i also tried finishing a prop for my future cosplay today, but as soon as i started painting it… i realized i forgot the primer.. the paint just wouldn’t stick to the material. i’ll have to grab some pva glue later – the easiest and cheapest way to prime porous stuff aside from that, i’m finally starting to rest a bit. even treated myself and started replaying one of my childhood favorites games – oblivion. it honestly feels like nothing’s changed at all compared to how i remember it. though i always remember old games looking more realistic and beautiful than they actually are… #slender #skinny #bikini #small #altgirl #teen #tiny #petite

good day! It's so ridiculous :D yesterday I told myself that I would rest and properly manage my strength. on the same day, I went for a massage to rest and after that I wanted to go to bed. but... instead, I crafted one item for the character's cosplay... despite the fact that I have no strength and I literally do it, overcoming my condition, but I am too happy about the creative process. I'm a creative addict... all my thoughts are occupied with ideas... how can I relax when I want so many things. and when I finished, I felt terrible, too tired and this is accumulated fatigue. but I want to do something so much... How to make me rest T_T I really need rest In addition, when I work a lot, I communicate very little... I'm so ashamed #skinny #tiny #cosplay #teen #anime #petite #underboob #emo #altgirl

hey! and good day to you all. i slept for a long time today and when I woke up it was too hot to go outdoors. but I had a great night's sleep. i still feel tired, but it's getting better. i wanted to sort out all the photos from this photo set and the next few with this character and organize them in folders by posting days to make it easier to post later, but i almost overworked myself again and decided to do it later. it's hard to write anything right now and nothing is happening, I'm just recovering. but at the same time the packages that i ordered for my birthday came. cosplay that i want to work on and kurowear clothes that also need to be finalized.... i know what i'll do when I'm rested. the most important thing is not to overwork again and not to forget to rest. #cosplay #sneakers #kneesocks #legs #cosplayer #cute #emo #alt #altgirl

I'm so tired... It was probably a bad idea to work almost all hours for many days in a row... I made another photo set, even 2 But I can't do anything else now. I'm exhausted mentally and physically Again, jumps from productivity to a state when it is difficult to even lift a finger. Someday I will learn how to correctly distribute my forces sleep.. I will sleep and when I wake up I will go to nature... #skinny #tiny #cosplay #teen #anime #animegirl #emo #altgirl #alt #tease

I've fixed the audio and added a loading process :D Sorry for the spam, please. This spoiled sound haunted me

~stocking cosplay~ yay! i can finally show you the wig i rescued! doesn’t look doomed at all now, right? :3 like i guessed, it doesn’t tangle—just mixes itself up a lot, but it's easy to brush. i even took pics of the fixing process so you can see the before & after — i’ll show them a bit later! still, it’s a pain to work with something this long... i have to brush it after every photo and every video. but i think it’s worth it also planning to take more pics soon. i’ve got some, but i want more :3 my right hand is officially done after all the brushing and crimping. feels like every little muscle in my wrist is tired and begging for rest happy but exhausted. gonna hang out on here a bit more, do some work, eat something, and then—finally—rest and sleep #cosplay #cosplayer #costume #emo #alt #altgirl #young #student #tiktok

wow, who’s that?

and here I am again! after 2 days of work, I completely unraveled the tangles and corrugated a huge wig, which seemed to me destroyed. in addition, I styled the bangs as needed and trimmed them. am I tired? incredibly tired. am I satisfied with the result? yes, I am satisfied and I also really liked the process will a long wig be stable in different poses? well, it will still be tangled, but much less and it will be easy to comb, and the bangs are practically concreted, although externally it is not visible and after that, new tools came to me... well, I'll check it on the next wig :D i'm sorry that I didn't answer anyone today, I've been hugging a wig literally since I woke up and now I've spent the rest of my energy on this post and will sleep tomorrow I will take photos with the rescued wig and then random people on reddit will say that making a cosplay is just tapping on the phone screen... meanwhile, I, who spent 2 days on a simple but long wig with almost no rest:D in general, good morning to you or good night. and I wish myself good dreams and a good night's sleep oh, I need some tags, I almost forgot... #skinny #tiny #small #egirl #petite #teen #altgirl #cosplay #slender #tape okay, that's done. see you tomorrow!

~ black tape PPV set ~ after thinking for a long time, i decided that the rest of the photos felt too special to me, so i put all of them into this PPV set. there are shots with the full black tape outfit and some where the tape is partially peeled off — both are here. i know the preview photo maybe should’ve gone in the set too… but i really wanted to leave it here. i just love how the light falls on my body in it, and i hope others can enjoy that too — the way the photo feels :D okay now i’m getting nervous again while writing this… this photoset always make me shy and i still don’t know what to do with that to calm myself down, maybe i’ll just tell you how my day went~ i got a few packages, and then decided to try fixing a wig for an anime character i once cosplayed — i had to stop that set too early because the wig was too long and kept tangling. so today i spent most of it gently crimping and detangling. didn’t finish yet, but made a lot of progress. honestly, my arms just got tired. it was kind of meditative… i felt like using my hands today instead of overloading my brain again. feeling a little bit calmer now and now I'd rather hide to calm down completely. I'll probably go to bed! #skinny #teen #tiny #small #xsmall #skiny #slender #petite #tape

hey! have a good day :3 I continue to work on the profile, so far things are going slowly, but I take it too seriously instead of the usual post, I need an honest opinion. not so long ago, I made a black body tape costume. I doubt about something. It looks too dressed and too undressed at the same time, and this is done according to the reference from the video where the model walks on the catwalk in this... I'm thinking of making a small paid set with some of the photos that seem more special to me and where some of the tapes got away from me. putting some of it for free, but a couple by subscription etc I don't know what exactly I want to ask and what answer I want to get x_x I just really like the way it looks and it seems like it's more than I usually upload forget it. I'll take care of it myself x) It's a little chaotic, but let's keep it that way shy by my own text... lol

Hey, everybody! I've already sent you a mass message about the rebuilds on my profile..... but my god, there's no way I can complete it in one day. Actually, the impetus was really one new feature. but that led to me wanting to completely redo all the decorations and etc. so you could say we're a mess of a renovation right now. I've been running this profile for a long time and it's been a long time since anything has changed, although I feel like I've changed and I want it to be more fresh.... but I'm very afraid that you might not like the changes... I will probably change my page more than once in the next month until I have something that I am happy with. I just ask one thing. please be understanding T_T