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Reflection 22th February Part 2:Aside from that, I slept in ..

Reflection 22th February Part 2:

Aside from that, I slept in today. My cold is getting better, but the stomach pain, digestive issues, and resulting lack of energy are unfortunately still there.

I wore my handcuffs quite a lot today and signed up for the info sessions for my psychotherapy training. I went for a long walk with my dog, took care of my horse, and did another round of puzzling in the evening.

This could count as being handcuffed, doesn't it? 😁

This could count as being handcuffed, doesn't it? 😁

Here are a few pictures I took at the orthodontist on Tuesda..

Here are a few pictures I took at the orthodontist on Tuesday for you 😉

Sorry for the late updates. I’m sick, and dealing with the e..

Sorry for the late updates. I’m sick, and dealing with the election on top of that has been extra exhausting 😅

@emilyaddamsofficial and I sending my Master a goodnight pic..

@emilyaddamsofficial and I sending my Master a goodnight picture before going to sleep at 7:30 in the morning after talking all night 😅

Happy Valentine's Day! 💞 Would you want me as your Valentine..

Happy Valentine's Day! 💞 Would you want me as your Valentine? 😉

Do you have someone special to spend the day with today? Are you doing anything special, or is it just like any other day?

I’ve been working in my Master's workshop floor until now, and I’m about to drive home to have a nice evening for myself. So, it’s just a normal day for me.

Reflection 9th February Part 2:But there were also some posi..

Reflection 9th February Part 2:

But there were also some positive aspects. For example, the fact that Agoria felt the need to protect me shows how much our relationship has improved. Additionally, I managed to stay calm throughout the day. I cried, but I didn’t lash out verbally. Instead, I spent a lot of time kneeling on the floor, listening to my Master's outburst without taking most of it to heart, because I knew he was just releasing pressure. I could feel that he was deeply hurt as well, and it was important to me to be there for him, to endure and carry his emotions with him.

By the afternoon, emotions had settled enough, and we had an intense session—he fucked me hard and hurt me in various ways. It was a double-edged experience for me. I love this kind of sex, but sex after conflict can also trigger negative beliefs in me.

I spent the evening reading manga. When we went to bed, we lay next to each other reading, and he kept using a trigger word to make me horny over and over until I begged for sex. Then he made me suck his cock and afterward masturbated until he came. He then ordered me to sleep at the foot of the bed, rubbing and kissing his feet until we both fell asleep.

Emotionally, this was extremely challenging on multiple levels. First, I was still internally tense because we hadn’t fully talked about what had happened during the day. Then, there was the fact that begging is still difficult for me. Being made to beg for sex, only to then not be fucked and instead be "banished" to the foot of the bed, was really tough, and I struggled to stay in my place. I wanted to resist when he made me suck his cock, and I wanted to cry when he sent me to the foot of the bed. But I did neither. Instead, I focused on my place.

And in the end, it was good that he sent me there. It gave me something to do that allowed me to feel my place intensely while still being close to him and finding inner peace. I’m not into feet, but kissing and stroking his feet felt really good because, to me, it’s a sign of devotion and gratitude. And those feelings become even stronger when I do it.

Reflection 8th February Part 2:When I got back from shopping..

Reflection 8th February Part 2:
When I got back from shopping, my Master was home too, and we went to the spa together. There, he played with me—tying my hands behind my back with my watch and entrance band, pulling me through the water like that, and repeatedly pushing me underwater, holding me there until I struggled, and then just a little longer. I was less afraid than usual. In fact, I was mostly worried about damaging my cervical spine further if I pushed too hard against his grip in pan_ic. We didn’t play for too long, and in between, he kept turning me on.

We talked a lot, and I shared some secrets with him—things that had been on my mind for weeks because I didn’t want anything standing between us. I also talked to him about my fears regarding my th3r@pist training, which is quite expensive, and the fact that you basically earn nothing while already working full-time. He reassured me, saying he would take care of it and make sure everything works out. And I trust him. It’s such a beautiful feeling to realize how my trust in him keeps growing.

That evening, when we were back home, we had sex. I begged him to use me and to allow me to serve him. My entire focus was on him. And he gave me an orgasm that lasted for an incredibly long time—so long that I eventually begged him to let me stop coming. Even after my orgasm, my focus remained entirely on him. I begged to feel him come, to experience his orgasm, and it was so much more beautiful and intense than my own. I was just completely happy and content because I felt so deeply in my place, so grounded in it. This understanding—that my orgasm is not important and that it’s all about his sexuality—hit me on an entirely new level today.

That night, I slept with jointed handcuffs behind my back.

Handcuffed and chained up for the next 2.5 hours—time to foc..

Handcuffed and chained up for the next 2.5 hours—time to focus on my term paper for university 😉

Marks of being a good girl 🥰And scratching and handcuff mark..

Marks of being a good girl 🥰

And scratching and handcuff marks 😉

I'm out shopping right now 😊What do you think of these outfi..

I'm out shopping right now 😊

What do you think of these outfits? 🤔

I’d absolutely love a shopping date: we go shopping together, I’m your little doll, and you pick out what I wear while I model everything for you… Who’s interested? 🥹👉👈

Spending this morning handcuffed my cage while answering a f..

Spending this morning handcuffed my cage while answering a few emails 😉

Now my pussy is completely filled 😊

Now my pussy is completely filled 😊

Here's a picture of my new vaginal plug. Insertable length: ..

Here's a picture of my new vaginal plug. Insertable length: 12 cm, diameter: 4 cm.