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2022-04-15 14:31:52 +0000 UTC View Post

Any of my followers into kink? I got this toy and it’s been ..

Any of my followers into kink? I got this toy and it’s been one of my favs.

2022-04-13 14:05:46 +0000 UTC View Post

Journal Entry: Keep moving forward

2022-04-11 13:44:22 +0000 UTC View Post

I got four of these briefs from CandyBoyz I love them

2022-04-10 11:41:42 +0000 UTC View Post

Pumping a bit before I head to the gym. This is me completel..

Pumping a bit before I head to the gym. This is me completely soft. I bet you can’t fit all of it in your mouth. I love watching my cock disappear into your mouth. When you go all the way down and your lips are pressed tightly against my balls my toes involuntarily curl. I hope you like cum boy. This loads going to be a mouthful.

2022-04-08 11:27:09 +0000 UTC View Post

(My brother and I) I spent so much energy studying how to be..

(My brother and I) I spent so much energy studying how to be anyone but me. I just wanted to be “normal” so badly. But wanting that didn’t prevent me from failing at it. I was so awkward. I begged to blend in, to take away the things that made me feel like I didn’t belong…if you have to ask me why I’m “so different” or why I “have to rebel”, it’s because of you. Because of those questions. You see me and ask why I live in such a vulgar way, and it’s true, to you, my life is obscene. But please don’t flatter yourself, the credit to my obscenity isn’t you. I credit all the painful things I did to keep you from having to see me to you. This was what I was trying to hide. To avoid questions like those. Im not rebelling against you. I’m just rallying behind myself.

2022-04-07 02:10:24 +0000 UTC View Post

Came into work early today and met some of the morning crew,..

Came into work early today and met some of the morning crew, introduced myself, “You’re Donut right? I’ve heard a lot about you, night crew loves you.” 🥺

2022-04-06 23:39:58 +0000 UTC View Post

My favorite Onlyfans account is @stachional he is my OF bf. ..

My favorite Onlyfans account is @stachional he is my OF bf. No, I didn’t ask for consent. And he has an actual IRL bf. But, I can dream right? He’s a friend who I find so attractive inside and out. Maybe someday we’ll make some OF content too. 🤞

2022-04-06 21:30:08 +0000 UTC View Post

You’ll never read this but… Your song comes on. I stop work..

You’ll never read this but… Your song comes on. I stop work to look up and I miss you. I turn to look towards the door to see if you’ve come to visit me. You’re not there, I don’t know why I keep doing this to myself. It’s 3am. Works over, time to go home but what am I returning to? t’s 4:30am, I haven’t slept. I pull the hoodie over my head and the door shuts behind me as I step outside. It’s cold. But it’s always cold on this walk. I put my headphones in and hit “play” to my book on tape, “Psychic Witch” by Mat Auryn. I’ve never considered myself anything of the supernatural. But the world around me is dull and I seek escape into a reality behind the concrete walls. As I walk it’s not long before I’m distracted by you. Never far from my thoughts I look up and continue to walk, picturing you fast asleep in bed. “Life is funny, life is cruel.” I think to myself. As I replay memories of events that have led me here. The feeling of being alone is a familiar feeling. It’s not that I’m bad at connecting with people. I find it exhausting. Too much of me invested in others only to have it turn to ash. “What’s the point?” I ask myself. I reach the gym, today I’m working on my chest. I lift the bar until I can’t lift anymore. Struggling to complete my set, asking myself why am I even trying? What’s the point? Who is this for? Is this for me? Im exhausted as I step outside the gym to return home, the suns beginning to rise. And I have no one to share this with. Everyday, who is this for? I begin my walk home. Heavy breathing. Thinking of you. I think of you a lot. “Maybe it’s best I’m alone?” …I miss them. I miss the ones I felt connected to. I miss the ones who made me feel like I was worth something. I miss those who saw greatness in me when I couldn’t see it myself.

2022-04-06 05:40:26 +0000 UTC View Post

Quick lil progress vid I took for my friend Azul

2022-04-05 13:35:18 +0000 UTC View Post

My friend was passing through town last night and asked if h..

My friend was passing through town last night and asked if he could crash, he had a long drive ahead of him. On his way out this afternoon he snapped this of me. I woke up feeling sick, body aches, headache, sore throat. 😔 I have plans this Friday with someone really special I hope I’m recovered by then. Been missing daddy.

2022-04-05 04:51:15 +0000 UTC View Post

I thought about you today, it was only a little painful. Ton..

I thought about you today, it was only a little painful. Tonight my friend had expressed interest in doing a ff scene with me, and having them try to slowly work their way deeper into me reminded me of you. My first and last person to do a ff scene with. It’s hard to not let that scene have so much power. It was the first time anyone had gone through so much effort to make me feel special. I remember thinking to myself “No one’s ever done something like this for me”. You really did quite a number on me. We hit hard and fast. It was rough, it was primal, I’ve never known how to trust so much of myself with someone else. I’ve never been more happy to be so out of control. You’ll be a tough act to follow Sir. Thank you for everything you gave me.

2022-04-03 04:39:09 +0000 UTC View Post

I called my momma from the pool deck.( I’ve been noticing th..

I called my momma from the pool deck.( I’ve been noticing this thing with my parents where as I grow a waiver between them back and forth taking turns on one feeling so close while I feel so distant from the other. ) We talked for a good hour, I see so much of her in me when I want to express myself. That’s a trait I promised to protect and never dim. Love you momma

2022-04-02 17:10:13 +0000 UTC View Post

DONT TALK ABOUT IT Pt.1 Yesterday was a special day for me, ..

DONT TALK ABOUT IT Pt.1 Yesterday was a special day for me, normally I’d love to elaborate and basically over share until the point everyone involved hates me, but after talking about it, for the time being I’m just going to practice limiting my sharing to things only involving myself. I’ll find creative ways to skirt this because I do enjoy a challenge but I won’t be sharing things like, we had sex for the first time. You’re not gonna read me post about how the night took a turn. I won’t riddle you with “you’d never know by looking”. I was asked a question recently I'm not unfamiliar with, but instead of giving myself the answer, I made myself work for it. I was asked, “Why do you have to share? What does it serve to be so public about it?” And I really started to ask myself what are my reasons for feeling so compelled to be so transparent. I don’t know if any of these are the real reasons I do it: but I feel like I’m alone a lot. Even when I’m surrounded by people. And often times I feel like none of my story mattered. But sharing it publicly I hope that even after I’m gone maybe I could have meant something. I feel like I’m so different I don’t feel like I belong here but the thought of living my truth hiding any uncomfortable parts of me you've been taught you should avert your gaze to just wasn’t a realistic healthy way for me to live authentically. There’s really so much more to this post maybe I’ll do a part 2 I need to hit send before OF have some issue and logs me out in the middle of my post for the 287th time. TLDR: I went to the bathhouse last night here’s a couple pics of me getting warmed up.

2022-04-02 15:23:13 +0000 UTC View Post

I love how I can just attach this pump turn it on and let it..

I love how I can just attach this pump turn it on and let it do its thing while I can focus on other activities 🤣😜

2022-04-02 06:21:40 +0000 UTC View Post

Words you can’t say on this site p.i.s.s. And c.h.i.l.d. I w..

Words you can’t say on this site p.i.s.s. And c.h.i.l.d. I was making a post about my parents and as their clhid how things were difficult and it stopped me to protect my subscribers. I hate this. Cum fuck balls ass hole slut dick These are all fine. I thought this site wasn’t for adult content? We were just allowed a space to be here. You mean no creators can use that word regardless of the context? I’m so tired of censorship.

2022-03-31 06:09:49 +0000 UTC View Post

I was chatting with a cutie on scruff, were talking about po..

I was chatting with a cutie on scruff, were talking about potentially hanging and watching anime sometime but I feel so sick right now, he offered to drive over and drop off an at home covid test. I told him it’s fine and I’ll go get one tomorrow but he insisted on bringing me one, even though we weren’t gonna hang. When he got here there was a cup o noodle and some green tea. That was so cute. Thank you new buddy, so kind and cute.

2022-03-29 09:45:37 +0000 UTC View Post

Can someone come over and bring soup? I haven’t been feeling..

Can someone come over and bring soup? I haven’t been feeling good today. Mostly body aches in my joints. Throat feels a little sore. I could use a friend to just come watch anime with me 🥺

2022-03-29 06:03:27 +0000 UTC View Post

I hate talking about it, I annoy myself, but I do find the p..

I hate talking about it, I annoy myself, but I do find the process very therapeutic.

2022-03-28 04:34:15 +0000 UTC View Post

We had a lot of fun with this cutie @beefbearrito

2022-03-26 19:35:59 +0000 UTC View Post

I love this new pump thanks piggy 😘😜

I love this new pump thanks piggy 😘😜

2022-03-26 19:27:21 +0000 UTC View Post

After the sex party it’s the hotel lobby and round a bout fo..

After the sex party it’s the hotel lobby and round a bout for it’s time to hit the bathhouse. Whenever I come to one of these places I ALWAYS hit the gym for about 30 minutes before I do anything else.

2022-03-26 12:53:12 +0000 UTC View Post

Attended my first DenLa sex party. It was great. So many dud..

Attended my first DenLa sex party. It was great. So many dudes, several available slings and sexual adventure gear available for use. When I arrived the mine went around the corner but moved pretty fast. I wasn’t feeling sexual so at clothes check I kept my pants on and jock, left my shirt thinking when I’m feeling horned up I can come back and leave my pants. When I finally was ready to fuck around I went to clothes check and I was stopped 3 feet from clothes check and told I’m Not allowed to go to clothes check unless I’m leaving. “They told you at the door” I was told but, tbh I wasn’t. So stacked my pants in my backpack. Daddy on the patio had a faaat cock, maybe the fattest I’ve ever taken. He wanted to fuck me but I hadn’t taken any dick that night so I told him I wanted to get warmed up. I went and found a cutie to pump a load into me. Went and found daddy, had him punch a hole in me.

2022-03-26 10:46:33 +0000 UTC View Post

8 guys vs my 1 hole

8 guys vs my 1 hole

2022-03-25 02:58:44 +0000 UTC View Post

When the BLM movement started I didn’t get it. Ignorant whit..

When the BLM movement started I didn’t get it. Ignorant white boy thought ALL LIVES MATTER, and this is true, all lives do matter. But not all lives are being treated like they matter. I didn’t get this. It was through asking a lot of questions and trying to understand, attending ONYX meetings(which is a group for POC), to better understand, talking with friends, and shifting my perspective on things. Growth. I went from years ago not understanding to understanding. I know others can do that too. No one is more aware of privilege more than those without it so if you’re white and don’t get it, that’s understandable. But it’s not ok to stay there. You were raised in a way where you can’t see it, that’s not your fault, but it’s your responsibility to educate yourself. And as a white person I learned the best way I can be an ally is helping educate other white people. People are more likely to listen to you from within your own community. It’s up to us to fix what’s going on from within. I got upset with a friend today who took this too lightly and thought it was a joke. It was hard to educate when I was so upset with them. I didn’t handle it well. It’s hard to be patient when someone is laughing at something that matters to you. I hope moving forward I’ll be able to be better at handling things like that. And I hope we can all do our part by correcting these things in the moment when they arise and not letting those opportunities pass us by.

2022-03-24 06:02:52 +0000 UTC View Post

Does anyone play video games? What games do you play and on ..

Does anyone play video games? What games do you play and on what system? PSN DonutSteak Apex, Elden Ring, Destiny

2022-03-19 09:45:35 +0000 UTC View Post

Things from my notepad part 2 : I just had a nightmare. It s..

Things from my notepad part 2 : I just had a nightmare. It started out as a regular dream and slowly twisted its way into the most elaborate well thought through story about the people I love most taking their lives in front of me ultimately ending with me following their lead. As this all climaxed the me in my dream heard my body, which was lying in my bed, start to moan in emotional pain loudly. Waking me up.

2022-03-18 11:53:35 +0000 UTC View Post

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