depression has been kicking my fucking ass lately, guys. im so sorry. D:
i've been so lazy just throwing up boobie pics. :((( just cant help it at the moment. trying everything that usually works to put me back on track. it stresses me out so much more because i **love** making people happy, but i just can't do it when my head is like what it is right now. please be more patient with me than usual. i know it's stinky. :c
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I paid for a shoutout so I’m gonna do lots of video content soon for the new subs so they can see newer things. Maybe it’ll motivate me to try harder?? Also I don’t wanna do content as a blonde so 🥲
used a new butt plug and it doesnt feel as nice like it hurt going in. but usually when it hurts i get really wet n like :c
it always hurts but i kinda get off on it n it didnt work this time. :((( grrr my body is broken
Manifesting a productive month of June.
I hope I can get back into Twitch more after I do everything I want to do on OnlyFans. c:
Wanting all the good things <3
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I hope we all feel better soon. I’ve noticed while I’ve been pretending to be better than what I am, other people seem to be struggling also. I miss happy chats. People are saying it’s because mercury is in retrograde and maybe it’s true. There’s just a lot less cheeriness at the moment. Hoping these quick snaps raise your spirits some if you’ve been feeling down lately. 💕
Still working on new content ideas. People have been so generous and kind to encourage me to try new things. Giving me ideas for my page is wonderful, because I do want to make people happy while not going too far out of my comfort zone too quickly. Thank you.
i ordered something special for live streams. give me ideas for what you wanna see.
so far i have:
- spanking
- shibari
- breathing (yes, existing. i just wanted to say a third thing.)
Wanted to do lewd and nude Ash Ketchum photos but maybe later bc I feel DISGUSTING rn lol
I did a lot of tidying and decluttering last night into the morning. Just wanting to get a bit more organized so it’s easier to do stuff for OnlyFans and Twitch.
warning: going back to blonde this week before I dye my hair again :c not looking forward to it, but yeah!! Maybe I’ll look into temp dyes for in between.
Gonna record my JOI content soon and if anyone wants to tip or buy me anything from wildflowersex.com or Victoria's Secret let me knoww. Someone already sent something they wanna see me use. :o If you wanna pick out anything for me to wear, show meee. But I am sorta behind on all the lingerie I already have lol. <3 Bc then I just end up naked when I do photos/videos here anyway c:
project #93 - YouTube ASMR videos for you guys since the main feedback I get is wanting to hear my voice more. Follow my socials for when that happens if you don’t have rebill on.
I hear more about my voice than wanting to see more 🐱 in PPVs lol
you guys are really nice to me and I enjoy that a lot. maybe that’s why I’m so bitchy to other people. maybe you’re enabling a brat. anyway thanks but now my behavior might be your fault now. 🤧
when I get psoriasis I hide from everyone bc I scratch my face AGGRESSIVELY and peel my skin off and get gross scars n discoloration but here’s this tiddy video anyway of me after like four or five trulys...
I like the nudes I take from stills when I record videos even if the videos don’t work out so I’ll try doing those more often. So casual spam lotsa of the time and then really nice, well-lit, higher quality nudes every now n then. I think I just prefer how I look on video than in photos tbh lol.
I did get new toys recently like smaller glass dildos and butt plugs so I hope to use them soon and show you guys 💗
Might do a quick twitch stream in a couple hours for my own sanity even if nobody shows up 🥲 BUT ALSO MIGHT NOT SO DONT WAIT FOR ME. I just haven’t played games in so long and I think I am burnt out from working on onlyfans, DMs, falling behind on housework, and just basically no self-care time. No selfish time. I don’t think a manipedi and one night in bed with my animals is sufficient enough to heal my spirits at the moment.
I also started a YouTube channel (I think? Idk I walked away after my first attempted upload). I do want to be selfish for a few days soon. More selfish! It’s good for the soul.
I also wanna start learning more about tarot and astrology (yes, I wanna be like one of *those* girls). Learning about new stuff is always fun, even if I suck at applying any of the knowledge. Then I can do little tarot readings for you guys!! That’d be so fun I think, regardless if you believe in it or not. It can be a live stream activity or a nude/lewd video to send. 💓 Some people asked to be my tarot guinea pigs already so when I clean my room I’ll definitely let that happen. Can be on discord (started my new one!! Details to come) chat/voice/video or on here. Weeee
