Sometimes I stress about content, being creative, keeping th..
Added 2022-02-06 14:37:27 +0000 UTCSometimes I stress about content, being creative, keeping the fans entertained, and trying to satisfy my own sanity that I fought the good fight inspiring new ideas as a solo creator. Managing my Chaturbate live stream twice a day, which is my sole income at the moment, and keeping up with updates while trying to not be repetitive is a bit grueling. Not to mention my exhausting 3hr gym routines, cardio, and being a father/taxi driver for my two sons while dealing with their egomanical mother!! However, don't get me wrong...I LOVE MY JOB! Since beginning this new venture plugging myself back into the industry it has restored my life, and rewinded time for me metaphorically speaking. There have been a lot of lows, but I never gave up on myself, and I just hoped as long as I never did that I just might find some relief and reward for my efforts. Some other things you might like to know...I am borderline bipolar disorder, and in my manic states I can be obsessive complisive. Washing my hands, cleaning over and over again, and making the simplest tasks seem like an eternity to complete. It is a fucking nitemare at times, but I deal with it to understand this what I have done to myself through my experiences, drug abuse, and trauma. I am not one to cry two tears in a bucket, I feel very lucky and fortunate to be here, but this might give you some insight to the person I am or have become, and why I choose to do porn exclusively. I literally do not belong in society. I had a military buddy once tell me. " You are a real crazy person. You should be in a padded room with a straight jacket, and feeding tube. " He was joking of course, but no seriously...lol
I will be joining with you all this evening 7pm CST for willing, and if you miss me tonite I will have another stream Thursday evening @ 7pm. I'd like to make a thing of it, and mix things up.✌💋❤
Stay 😈 my friends!!
