i saw mommy kissing Santa claussss… only it was a Santa Cla..

i saw mommy kissing Santa claussss…

only it was a Santa Claus ornament bc MOMMY HAS ALREADY LOST HER GD MIND IN THE XMAS QUALIFIER (ie thanksgiving). If anyone tryna kiki on holidays gone mad hmu. Traditions that helped you make sense of time and space gone awry?People lost feeling…lost again? Countless familial relationships in desperate need of repair just slappin a red n green bandaid on it in the name of Saint Nick? ✔️✔️✔️ It’s really just an awful time for everyone. BUT STARBUCKS HAS THOSE CUTE LIL RED CUPS? 🤗

Anyway, Thanksgiving weekend was hard just like it was probably hard for anyone with lil kids. Apparently new baby compounds toddler holiday drama behavior and really has you questioning why you don’t just become a Jehovah witness minus the celebrating Jesus part too. TAKE IT ALL AWAY WE (THEY*) DONT DESERVE YOU. But no, year after year I live and breathe the holidays like a total fucking idiot.

Cuz who can resist dragging their kids to the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day parade. And then getting the tree. And then, well I mean we have to bake cookies! And do you even HAVE a tree if no one comes to your house to see it!?!? (parties parties parties 🧟‍♀️🎄🧟‍♀️). Oh and we need good pictures of all of it! SMILE KIDS! And then list-making, gift-buying and the stress of planning stressful travel and we’re rounding out the first weekend of the “holiday season” and it’s not even December yet (lol)

But ok ok reeeeeling it in. Of course I’m thankful I get to do all this stuff. Even if it’s to the soundtrack of fighting kids and screaming babies once in awhile you see them smile and hug each other to the tune of Bing Crosby’s “it‘s beginning to look a lot like Christmas”. Better yet you take em shopping for the school toy drive and let them go bananas for kids in need. Teach em what matters while you’re busy doing all the stuff that doesn’t matter but kinda matters? Like stressing about where to hang the stockings “with care”…Meanwhile wondering if doing all the holiday prep and decorating just builds up the impossible weight of tradition on my kids shoulders.
Coercing them to become nostalgic for a Christmas I too am “nostalgic” for. AM I PERPETUATING UNHEALTHY HOLIDAY EXPECTATIONS!? Anyway 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 i better stop thinking and just drink my wine…right? right. I’m still allowed to love Christmas right? right! Ok cool good talk. hahah 😳

But yes! Happy thanksgiving! happy December?🤞🤩🤞 Hope you’re well and the Thanksgiving weekend wine down feels as good as mine. 😛

Have a great week.