Good morning ! 💓 I’m back home from a wildly indescribable t..

Good morning ! 💓 I’m back home from a wildly indescribable trip. Thank you so much for ur patience as I get back to all messages and OF stuff.

I’ll be getting back to my inbox today! Also if you have requests for customs, GFE, ratings, video chat etc I’m so ready to do those this week 😈 It felt amazing to recharge. Maybe I’ll share about my trip later, maybe I’ll keep it to myself and just move on and make new content in the online matrix. I loved this little rare pocket of being fully offline. I definitely feel blessed to have been able to step away and do this. It’s the return to reality (cyber-reality?) that’s difficult. It was so different and out of my comfort zone to literally not check my socials or devices for several days. Liberating and peaceful.

Still in this moment now, I can’t help but feel embarrassed and disappointed in myself at how horribly my scheduled posts sucked and flopped lol, I really thought this batch of pics from Italy would do better… Expectations are the gateway to disappointment tho and I just fucked myself (not in the fun way). I think the next time I take a break I’ll just not post at all, instead of wasting my time creating fillers that no one will like or tip or engage. It’s a lesson learned.

Ahh if you see this post please like it so I’m not just screaming into the void! Thank you so much to those of you who actually do like and tip and support my page in any way 💕 I understand money is tight this time of year but it takes a few seconds to like a few posts. There’s a lot of lurk and jerk going around so I just want to reiterate again that I really appreciate when y’all like my pics !

💕 *Incidentally if you wish to go through all my posts (over 1400 of them!) and Like at least 200 of them, dm me when you’re done and I’ll send you a free full length sex video* 💕

When my posts don’t do well I just delete them en masse and feel apprehensive in posting anything new. It sucks to have my confidence swayed by metrics but no one in this field is immune to that. I really do my best to maintain objectivity, but it’s tough when it’s tits out, pussy out, dare I say baring my soul as well. I work so hard in creating content that makes both you and me happy, and I wish my efforts here were acknowledged more. It’s very easy to dismiss an OF creator as “oh this is the easiest shit ever” when in reality I’m basically “on” 24/7 and working so much more than you think. Even in the past when I would go take breaks I would still check my phone and respond to stuff and be engaged and active, even in a lowkey way.

This trip was not a content creating trip, it was a very personal deep dive.

I did take a lot of 🔥 nudes (of course! I love flashing my titties in all kinds of new and beautiful places, in cute outfits, it’s always gonna be a part of me before and after OF) but since they’re more special than my usual home pics I’m gonna keep them in a special box … maybe I’ll make a separate campaign for pics/vids from this very special moment in time 🏩💝

I would like to go back to this place eventually with the intention of filming content, but I’m very happy with the role it has served at this point in my life.

Going from an incredible otherworldly adventure back into these ungodly human feelings of disappointment and frustration, it’s a bit of an existential crisis. That’s not to say it can’t be overcome, it just may require a different approach as to how I do things online. I’m trying to sit through this discomfort now. How do I apply what I’ve learned, to the future Nastya? How do I take things not as personally? How do I make you guys feel comfortable in engaging more with my page, without exhausting my own efforts? Idk how to engage my social media presence without completely burning out or being cracked open. If there’s no demand at the moment then I don’t even need to be posting. Maybe I still require more rest, and it would be aligned since it’s so slow. I’m conflicted. It would probably be wise to try and have some faith in myself and move on and not take things as personally, but unless you’ve been on the other side of this screen it’s easier said than done 🌟 Sorry to yet again be so emotional but every time I look at my phone I get this feeling of incongruous disappointment.. there’s so much I wish was different but is entirely out of my control. I feel like I’ve hit a wall 🙈💘