I am so fucking tired of feeling underappreciated and giving..

I am so fucking tired of feeling underappreciated and giving my all to something that isn’t validating me at the moment

Later this year I will be leaving OF to write my book and probably going back to irl sw because logging in gives me anxiety — about my appearance, about comparison to everyone I know who is doing better than me, about my self worth and doubt. Definitely enjoy me here while you can, it has been a pleasurable few years but I think if things don’t change by the end of the year I will leave this platform

This is such a personal line of work and having gone through such immense personal traumas and debilitating pain in the last year, I question my future. Honestly given the shit I have endured I don’t even know how I am remotely functioning. I’m like a glitching fembot, a malfunctioning machine

If you’re waiting on something from me like a message or custom or package or etc I will still absolutely honor that, I respect all of you as subscribers on my page. Thank you sincerely for being here for me. But I do feel under appreciated and like no one cares and that I shouldn’t even be here. I put so much work into this and no one gives a shit. I know that insecurity and anxiety are unsexy, I apologize for the unattractiveness, but no one gets to decide how I feel

I love doing this, my OF is very important to me, but I don’t feel appreciated here right now. My campaigns have not reached their goals and even my posts are not getting liked. The demand for my supply is just not there. I know it must sound so dumb to you, but it’s important to me

You have no idea how much work I put into my OF. You literally have no idea. Just try to do my job for one day and it will debunk all the myths that exist surrounding the “easy job” that this is memed out to be

If you’ve noticed on my socials, I’ve completely stopped advertising. It’s already committing digital suicide. Of all things, the social media aspect of this job is the worst. I love the content creation, the artistry, the interactions with you wonderful people. But I hate promo, advertising, marketing… all of it is just laced with complete bullshit. Winter is the slowest season for sw and it is absolutely brutal. Still I have an immense content library and archive that I believe is worth keeping, at least for now. I will continue to post until my account dies its natural death and expires organically. I still have unreleased new content to be posted into February and March so I will for sure be active until then. After that, I don’t know

If I do decide to leave, I will tell you guys in advance when the decision has been made so you can let your subscriptions run out and not waste your money. Till then, this is a good time to tip me, chat with me (I do not and I will not ever answer dm’s on my socials or anywhere else besides OF and this is the only way to get in direct contact with me), look through my massive archive of posts, give my content Likes, request a custom, a video chat, GFE, cock rating, mailed pantie package, any service that I for the time being offer online…

Love you all who support me here but sorry I am feeling terrible and unwanted. I was hugging my cat and crying a lot this week, but now I’m past the point of tears and just feel numb and hollow and rejected

Making my posts temporary because no one likes them or gives a shit anyway