Personal life update... My husband and I usually play with p..
Added 2023-07-12 17:11:11 +0000 UTCPersonal life update... My husband and I usually play with power dynamics, roleplay kinks, and hotwife / whore life. But we've recently started playing with the other part of BDSM in a way that's opening me up 🙈 I've been wanting to also explore more pain 😰 not as part of whore life, but just as something we do on our own. As context, I love whoring and I trust him so much, it's easy for me to go all in on hotwife life. I don't say "no" to him, we don't have a safe word. I'm a free use whore to him and anyone he wants me to fuck. I'm totally comfortable and happy with this. So I thought, since we have that deep underlying trust and I generally tend to like pain, that I could go all in on that, too. I didn't realize until we started that, woah, I'm gonna have to back up and learn a lot first. I realized that, even while subbing to other people, I've always been fundamentally in control. I'm the one always saying "yasss give me more, harder". It's different with my husband. He's kind, gentle and protective, but he also has the skill set and comfort level to take control and dole out pain ruthlessly. We didn't even go that hard physically yet, I just got scared because I saw a glimpse of what he's capable of. So we found the roleplay in which I feel safest and backed it up to smaller steps. I felt good about it though, because everything starts somewhere and learning about the journey together is part of the fun. We can't go hard often because I can't have marks before shoots. But when we do get a respite between filming, I'm excited to explore more... Always growing, always new exploration, that's what keeps relationship fire alive 🔥
