I’m not asking for tips! Please don’t waste your hard earned..

I’m not asking for tips! Please don’t waste your hard earned money on someone who has given up…. Don’t make me cry! Please…. I know this community is awesome… just don’t waste it on me I’m not worthy… I’m just a loser who has given up I can’t keep a promise to my fam … Hey guess who has been hospitalised once again! 😂 I know most of you can’t be bothered to read this. I just need to let it out… this post will be all about me … Need to vent/let it out/whatever you want to call it! Had a chance to speak with the hospital psychiatrist and yeah he suggested I type this out and just let go! I’l don’t have much time left … do I want to get cured yes I do. Can I afford to get cured no I can’t. Even with financial assistance I can’t. It’s horrid wanting to stay alive and not wanting to burden my family. Hospital debts apparently taken from my estate so ya cpf there u go! I’m wiped out insurance also won’t give my family anything as this is a relapse. I’m just a waste of space. Causing more pain & suffering for my family. Some of you my know my wife was doing OF and yeah, I created this account to help her out. She actually cold quit but due to the bills she came back. Been 2 years here, I’m so happy to have known you all, thank you for the well wishes, words of encouragement, financial assistance, all the ladies who have helped me out during this period. I love everyone single one of you! From the bottom of my heart THANK YOU! I never did anything majorly wrong in my life. Occasional drinks, social smoking never cheated. I do charity, volunteer, help those in need, go to church. 1 failed businesses, 1 still surviving, most likely that would be taken away to pay the hospital bills my employees would be jobless. Yes I do feel bad about that, they have been with me for 15 years they be like family to me. I just hate how my cards were dealt…. Processing my stages of grief here. Lost over 30kg, my penis has not been working for a year. I can’t eat sushi, I’m experiencing pain in my fingers and toes ( side effect from chemo) can’t freaking sleep unless I take pain killers. Extend my life for what? You call this quality of life? I can’t do anything. When I’m at I’m in bed most of the time. Walking hurts typing this hurts! Few things I am looking forward to if I manage to stay alive, walking my daughter down the isle, growing old with the wife, seeing the end of One Piece ( been following that for years since the Chinese dub version was shown on chan 8 still remember which episode Sanji joining the crew) I want to travel, I want to skydive, I want to bungee jump, go on a date with @graciehartie just dinner or lunch but I have no appetite maybe just a walk in the park? Life sucks guys! I have 8k subs here if everyone gave me $2 my debts would be cleared. I’m not going to beg for it. I may not have long but I have pride. Yeah unaliving over $16k is it worth it NO! But it’s not the end more bills will be coming soon this recent hospital visit most likely will cost another 2k haha 😂, it’s like 1 MRI is 800 bucks. 1CT scan is 600 how can I keep doing this every 3 weeks? Bl00d test every 2 weeks! Doctor consults 3 different departments 3 different visits! It’s not cheap even at 50 a consult! Yes I take bus to and fro I can’t afford grab or dare to drive now. Car has been sold off, house hold expenses guys, we still need to put food on the table. I want to give up at the same time I don’t want to! I don’t know how much longer I can take the stress, pain, suffering. Do you guys know how slow time moves in the hospital? I hate it so much. I’ve decided not to go through with anymore checkups and treatments. My cpf can’t cover anymore. Need to keep as much as I can for family. I’ll be checking myself out tomorrow. I’ve accepted my fate. Just pray for a miracle. Oh yes my brain is getting slow too I suddenly can’t spell. Since you stayed so long reading Thanks for listening… love you all a shoutout to all the lovely ladies who have helped me, god bless, may you all have more subs earn more more! @cherrileee @tingting9431 @submisslvixen @graciehartie @FullAccessFoodandBoobs Sorry to spoil your Saturday. Wait why are you reading this on a Saturday go out have fun! Drink a pint or shot for me!